Thirteenth


Dear July,
At the moment, one of my most favourite things is a series of videos called Fold Yeller. One person (Simone) wears a blindfold and another person (Russ) has to guide her through videogames – telling her when to jump and which direction to run. The videos are slow and strange and repetitive. Super Mario was the same instructions over and over, as Simone inevitably fell into a pit and they had to start the level again. Zelda was a dash across the open world, miraculously vaulting over pits of larva unscathed.
This isnt even really a recommendation, July, because I’m not sure other people would find the same peace in them that I do. I don’t know what it is about them that is so hypnotic. There’s something about the skill with which Simone blindly navigates the controls, and the calmness in Russ’ voice as they patiently begin a task again. I wish I knew what it is about Fold Yeller that quietens my brain so I could recapture it, find it in other places. Anxiety is like a like a strange little imp and if I can find the right things to occupy it, it will sit quietly for a while and stop buzzing madly around the inside of my skull.
Alex x

I’m posting a blog for every day in July. Letters to July was inspired by Emily Diana Ruth.

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